My mind now's blank. I don't want to think of university, scholarship, career prospects, army and that thing anymore. For now I mean. For the past 2 months, it has been so tiring. Like seriously. Which is why, for now, though I am living my army life, I want to dedicate my life to only 2 things. 1, to create opportunities for young people to gain confidence in life or to fulfil their dreams. 2, to watch anime. Heh. Well, like I said, I needed a rest too yeah? So yeah. I have soooo many ideas in mind but I have never properly achieved any because I did not have the resources, expertise, determination and resolve to do it. But now, I think I might have. After all, today's our 1st RGB Life! event and my 1st organizing event in YEC so yay. But yeah, in time to come, through RGB Life! and V2, I will find my way. To make an impact, to create a platform to make an impact and to create an ultimate incentive supporting a platform to make an impact. Opps. For a moment I was back to my idealistic mindset. But yeah. Challenge accepted starts now!

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"...But one day, I suddenly wondered, "Why?". Why did he seem so happy having dinner with me?
Maybe I'm being self-conscious, but... I felt like Yanagisawa Mitsuo saw me as something really valuable. I guess it was kind of scary. Well, I couldn't tell what about me he was interested in. If it was a fantasy, a misunderstanding, or an assumption... And I don't think I've shown him enough of my personality for him to be interested in me. Besides, I don't want him to think he knows me after spending so little time with me. So, I thought I'd keep my distance for a while." - Linda (Golden Time ep19)

Lately over this week, I kinda pondered about this too. And coincidentally, I got to watch this episode over my book out this time. :3 Somehow, it's weird how I've never empathized how unusual things are. Worse still, even for myself, I never really noticed how I couldn't control my actions, emotions and intentions. I guess it's partly because the people that I hang out and chat with are all guys so I've used the same way to converse with this time without thinking twice. Really though, I want to know you better as a friend. Honestly with no ill intents! But since circumstances doesn't allow for that, I just cannot do anything about it. So yeah. It's time to grow up. I have all the time I need in life so I'll take it slow. While I let fate and affinity decide. :|

I feel a bit shameless saying it here ahahahas but I kind of think that my emotional well-being and attitude towards relationships is really similar to Kaga Kōko. :3

I don't want to be even more shameless and go on about the specific traits that make me think I'm similar to her. But hey, in summary, I really love her try-hard attitude in love and how she may seem creepy but is actually very soft on the inside. I'm at episode 7 now and loneliness seems to be leaving her gradually so yay! Let's see where the last few episodes will go. ;)

"Worrying about rejection may be the same as rejecting yourself." - Kaga Koko (Golden time ep4)

Every year, every month, every week and even every day, our personalities will change. In accordance to the things that happen to us at any point of time. Sometimes, we will be more mature, a little reserved or shy, tainted, scheming and sly, or even scarred by fear and chained from a carefree life. Humans change, souls change, behaviours change. Things will never stay the same. Just as Nagisa once said, "Fun things... Happy things... They can't all possibly stay unchanged. Even so, can you go on loving this place?" That for place and now for people.

 

Thing is, do we still remember at which point of time did we change in what way? Apart from the happy reminiscing and nostalgia. Were there any things which we regret gravely? Events that have scarred us all the way till present times? Tragedies that we rather forget but have yet to face it without fear? Personalities which we do not wish to reveal at all to our current friends? All this knots, when untied, ironically, it will make bonds come together stronger. With true understanding, empathy and assistance. Stronger bonds within the relationships of our present times. 

Kokoroco has been occupying my heart this few hours. So yeah. I don't really have much life content to talk about. Loads of philosophical thoughts from Kokoroco though but I can't possibly write it here so yeah. Friendship the only thing in my mind these hours. It's sad, depressing and comforting at the same time. Halfway through the show. Let's see what happens then. (':

"I learned to adopt a persona. One that fits his preferences. I was careful not to do anything that would make him angry. If I behaved like this or did that, he wouldn't get mad. He might even praise me. I changed my tastes to match. Ever since, I've been switching between personas. Live your own life. Those words left me stunned. What did I like? What did I want to do? After spending most of my life trying to live as someone else wanted. I'd apparently forgotten who I was. So I decided to just pick appropriate personas based on the situation. Ironically enough, I prided myself on being able to guess what other people wanted. But I've started to lose my touch. Then maybe, eventually, I'll just fade away." - Iori Nagase (Kokoro connect)

I've not been watching overdue animes lately. Which basically means the better animes. The last 2 were Jinrui and Shinsekai. Both were really good for me. Especially Shinsekai. But now, I guess, Kokoro connect introduces some really heart wrenching and heartwarming aspects too. 4/17 I'm prepared for better things to come. And at the meantime, reflect about life. (:

NOOOOOOOOOOO. Summer 2013 has begun and I haven't selected my animes yet!;-; Kuoxuan said Free's nice but it's so gay omg idk really. And yeah let's see. I've targeted Uchouten Kazoku (Raccoon dogs omg), Kiniro mosaic (Reminds me of Kotoura so shall try), Rokyubu (Note the absence of SS), MONOGATARI (Needless to say), Stella Jogakuin Koutou-ka C3-bu (Interest based anime favourite genre with military like garupan yes please) and Kamisama no Inai Nichiyobi (The 1st anime that I've targeted since last season).

Okay so yeah. The key question still is: Do I have so much time per day and per week to watch?:3

I should go back into kpop for a while this season. All the nice groups are having comebacks gosh. =O And talking about seasons, the summer2013 animes are here this week but noooooo I've got no time at all. I haven't even reviewed the list of animes to pick up. :/ Argh. Life's been unexpectedly packed that I can't stand the rush but on the other hand, I am appreciating how occupied I am so it kind of balances off and yeah hahas. SSC ends tomorrow but Kaohsiung starts tomorrow too and when Kaohsiung ends, that's probably when my competition work will start, whereby it will last till 31st July and that's when BGM and Nday comm serv will take place until the end of August. I DON'T EVEN HAVE TIME TO DO WORK AND ARTS AND CRAFT OMG. Opps sorry for the sudden rage but yeah. Message sent across. It's going to be a stressful sem so do comfort me yeah?(:

I feel like Taichi Mashima. Ultimately, as much as circumstances have allowed, I guess I will never be the choice. At the back on Chihaya's mind, with just 1 line, it's all it takes to prove my point.

 

The day when such a thing happens in my life.

I would think that it would be the greatest day night of my life. (:

#Nowplaying Orange - Toradora ED2 (:

 

"But everything keep changing. All the fun and happy things are changing. But even so, are still able to like that person?"

OKAY TIME FOR THE ANIME POST.

Lol, tbh, I dont have much to say for the anime post. Well I guess I shall just do a few facts count here so that I'll remember it in the future, and thereafter, I shall end this post. (:

Fact 1: I have finished watching 19 animes, not including In progress animes, in 2012! YAY!(:
Fact 2: My first attempt to finish watching an anime's this year. And my 1st ever anime to be completed is Anohana. Around April I think. It would be nice if I still remembered the data orhzzz.
Fact 3: I went for my 1st ever AFA this year.
Fact 4: I only watch mind-blowing, good concepts, school life, romance and mystery animes. I dont like harem, robots, action and absolutely random animes. So yeah. And my favourite anime genre, contrary to popular preference, is actually the hobby-kind. Well, I dont know the actual term so yeah.
Fact 5: My anime count will never be anywhere close to @thatredsky. On average, I will watch 5 animes every season.
Fact 6: Here's the list of animes that are on my list now, both watched, ongoing and intending to:

• Anohana
• Ano natsu de matteru
• K-ON!
• Natsuiro Kiseki
• Sakamichi no apollon
• Mahou Shoujo Madoka Magica
• Clannad
• Saki
• Tsubasa reservoir chronicles
• Toradora
• Yuru yuri
• Tari tari
• Hyouka
• Angel beats!
• Koi to senkyo to chocolate
• Sword art online
• Chihayafuru
• Hanasaku iroha
• Sukitte iinayo
• Tonari no kaibutsu-kun
• Sakurasou no pet na kanojo
• Death note
• Working!
• Kokoro connect
• Air
• Kanon
• Haruhi
• Accel world
• Ro kyu bu!
• Seitokai no ichizon
• Kimi ni todoke
• Azumanga Daioh
• Natsume's book of friends
• And more...

So yeah. As I have tweeted before, I'll probably have more time to watch shows in January THIS year as compared to LAST year's december hols so yeah. May next year be a better anime year where I can gain new inspirations, ideas, lessons and most importantly, entertainment for my life!:3

Heh. I just read my previous blog post and I have to say. I was inspired by SAO but suddenly I realize, it's still inspiring and teaching me about what to do and think about in life. But horhhhh, it's not really subtle any more lehhhh. Paiseh. =P

Nevertheless, my views are still applicable for other animes so ohhh welll. (:

If you ask me what makes a good anime, I'll probably say: "A good anime, is one that can showcase a subtle story, by touching right through my heart, while most importantly, inspiring and teaching me about life, all at the same time."

-Inspired by Sword Art Online-