It's been years. And it hasn't occurred to me I guess. I never thought that I would lose it. And as I almost lost it once, I still thought that everything would be fine. It's so precious. But have I treasured it well enough? What have I done? I really wanna know. For it hurts, and I dont wanna get rejected again. Because I have already once concluded, that this will be the most important pillar of support in my life. If I have to tone down, be quiet, give respect and not offend, I guess I would. Even if all were still well even at this point of time, will it disappear? Will it be gone?