I don't deserve to be close to you. I take your kindness to me for granted and now, this is what I do to you. It hurts. Less for the enlightened you but for me, it hurts really. While others can give you the slightly superficial love, I don't even have the right to judge after what I've done (or rather am going to do). What's the point of my blogpost a few days back? 3 more days. It doesn't even matter anymore. For the message of my love and infatuation isn't even sent directly to you. I won't even be there to celebrate. What more can I ask for? Im sorry. :3