GOSHHHHHHHHH JUST KILL ME NOW.

Everything that can screw up screwed up today. It seems as though after you have lied to me for 3-4 months, the results finally show me the truth of my true capability.

English exam incomplete writing. Physics honours overall A gone. Shaky statistics and math honours final score (Probably A- for both). Chem quiz 10/15. Speechless SMS reply. Headphone's microphone jack broke off. GPA5.0 gone ENTIRELY. Though without much calculation, I guess my final GPA this sem is most probably gonna be 4.5.

I seriously don't want to see this happening. What hurts the most now are 2 things. 1, the lost of an end in mind.

2, the lost of the drive to move on now. Perhaps due to some kind of awkwardness and confusion. The need for me to invite speakers for PIG, to look for ARP mentors, to study for PhyO, to work on Pre U Sem and DCARP. I really need to stand back up from somewhere.

And so, the lifestyle has to change. A 180 degrees change. The one that'll make me most fresh and conscious. To treat the whole world with smiles. To treat my life like a game with unless fulfilling missions to conquer. To treat all the other end in minds as my priority now.

For the future is bleak. No one know what's gonna happen and how thing's gonna turn out.